I graduated from high school hell bent on a journey. I needed to find who I was. High school was miserable. I felt like I was a black stripe in my Christmas colored plaid uniform skirt. Who was I? Was I the punk rocker chick from freshman year with the black eyeliner and spiked belt? Was I the girl in the polo shirts with the popped collars from sophomore and junior year? Was I the girl who sped forward with reckless abandon through her senior year?
D. None of the above.
The first year of college I made friends. I lost friends. I lived, I loved, I lost. I was a cliche.
Moving out on my own, I lived with the blinds closed. Shutting out the world. The inside isn't so pretty, I warned.
Then a terrible thing happened. One of those things that rocks the very core of who you are.
It was a turning point. I looked at my life from a distance in that moment. Who was I? Was this who I wanted to be?
No.
I hit the bottom. I felt those rocks that people talk about. Where do you go when you hit that place? Do you run and hide? Do you cower and give up?
I climbed. I climbed up and up until I reached the very top. From there, I proclaimed:
Hi. I’m Shannon. I’m a daughter, sister, friend, and girlfriend. I love my cats more than a normal person should. I am goofy and I don’t think I’ll ever outgrow being a klutz. I am creative, funny, and smart. I worry too much. I like plans and to-do lists. I love to write and read. I love my house. I also love Justin Timberlake.
I've been gifted this life.
I've been to hell and back.
Nice to meet you.
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Nice to meet you, too.
Planning and to-do lists are my thing. They keep me sane.
Reading is one of the only things that makes me happy, however I can't seem to click "confirm" on JK's new book. $17.99? Have you started it yet?
D. None of the above. If that was a multiple choice question I would have gotten it right. I love to plan and be creative too. Nice to meet you on the up-climb.
Hi, I'm Kayla that line "Then a terrible thing happened. One of those things that rocks the very core of who you are." gave me chills, and I think I felt my heart sink. Unfortunately, I think it's during these times that we find ourselves, we love harder, we learn to appreciate life and the people around us more than the things...
Nice to meet you too :)
I love that you just owned it, teach me how.. teach me how.
I just love this. LOVE it.
Love this. I think through out our who lives we still try to figure out who we are.
This post really, really, really resonated with me.
Hi, I'm Ashley. I'm an introvert, and that's okay. I am bossy and passionate, quirky and awkward, occasionally funny. I am a tom boy. I love old and rustic things. I believe in science.
Nice to meet you, too.
I'm sad that I didn't hit bottom until I was married with kids. :/ Or that my bottom came on because of something Matt did.
I love this post!!!!! Thanks for sharing.
reminds me of a saying I'm currently loving: I stopped fighting my inner demons. We're on the same side now. Sometimes the battle is just accepting and being just fine with who you are. Great post Shannon!
You are Shannanon and you are fabulous. I'm glad you got it all figured out :)
This is all about growing up and finding inner peace with yourself and saying to hell with everyone else! I am glad you discovered that sooner than later!!!
It's sucks figuring out who you are and where you belong.... but I'm glad that I found you and your goofiness :)
and i am so glad to have met you.
Nothing wrong with being a cat lover. I don't like lists, but I love JT.
I love you just for who you are!
I love this. Love. It was something I practically could've written myself.
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